A walk into the soul’s underworld, and in this experience to reemerge with clarity and peace…

STAY PUT

A heavy, thick cloak burdens
my shoulders once again, shortening my stance,
by at least two inches.

It drags along the ground with each step,
slowing my pace
and immediately transports my mental state
into another reality of
gloom, depression, fog, confusion.

A reality at times, I have difficulty leaving,
perhaps because I can’t see the exit
or I want to stay,
because it’s familiar.

Heavy, thick, consuming cloak,
each step forward is a lifetime journey.
I know wearing this weighted garb
only holds me back.

Dragging, tugging, straining,
so much effort to just be content, satisfied.
Exhausted, my eyes droop,
despair, fatigue settles in.
Would sleep offer some relief?

Pulling, shuffling, hearing
the haunting sound of the cloak
as it roughly skims the floor.
I’m in it,
succumbed to its weight
to my knees, head down,
surrender, rest,
stop forcing, stop resisting.

Everything melts, dripping to the floor,
tension releases, emotions cascade
forming a pool before me.
The thoughts, oh the thoughts,
after a long tedious, poorly strategized battle,
finally surrender.

All that is left is a lavish void
of complete surreal silence.
A sea of quiet, expands and traverses
beyond the edges of the mind,
stretching beyond the confines of the body.

Relaxing, nurturing, tender catch and release.
Each inhale brings more calm and serenity,
each exhale extends
the etheric body further and further,
stretching stiff, rigid bones, muscles,
consciousness.

The confusion recedes,
and reveals a profound crispness, clarity,
oneness.

I stay put, right where I am.
Fully, genuinely present in this shift of perspective,
so it may seep into my veins,
infuse into my marrow,
charge my neural networks,
jump start my sacred heart,
transmute my energetic field.

In this space of total refuge,
I stay put, right where I am.
— Stacy L. Pintor ©

Visit my soul alchemy blog where I share psychoenergetic practices to aid with internal balance, manage stress, promote self-regulation, and improve mental and emotional health. This poem is included in Alchemy of the Soul. 

Stacy 🦄💚✨

Photo: a gorgeous orange butterfly in my backyard.